Life, and Marriage

I took a more definite positive pregnancy test today and things we're looking up. I was super stoked to see the little blue line but he didn't seem as excited as I expected him to be.

He's worried that I'm going to use this against him and use it to pressure him into something. He's excited about the baby it's self but I guess he's just worried. I'm at the point that I don't know what more to do to show him he can trust me. I really don't ever want to do anything to hurt him. I don't think I could even if I did want to.

We talked a bit about contract marriage today and made a list of things that would go with it. He doesn't think I can really do it but I can. If he stays to his part then I know I can stay to mine. I know to some people the idea of a contract marriage doesn't sound too appealing but for me it works.

It provides me with the security I want, and gives my child an unbroken home. It also allows me to have more children with him, and I know how wonderful of a father he will be.

This may all sound crazy to most people but maybe someone out there understands what I'm talking about.